Walked out behind wolves are forever, and danced in the elevator.
I'm held together by Bicep's Glue, soundtrack of a (current) life.
All words become character references in time. Fine wine.
Everything I ever loved about a man was already mine.
I'm laying in a hammock with Dora, life is chill. Blanketed, cozy, under the stars.
I'm seeing familiar faces through different eyes.
Less, and less, and less surprise.
I no longer sleep wearing a neck brace.
Talked with a friend today who's going through it. His mother is dying.
We all are on similar timelines. Talked about lighthouses and embodying them.
Help bring the ships to shore safely.
Even if you must remain stoic and perceptively lonely.
My heart feels full. I stopped fighting being alone. I'm not really, my social life is abundant and full.
I have a rat in my house.
I thought he might just be a well fed mouse, until I saw his rat tailed bottom through a crevice.
I've named him Herman.
I'm not fighting his existence. I want him to feel safe and welcome, so he'll walk into the live traps I've baited.
I clean up his mess each morning. After he's had a house party with no warning.
Dora can't be bothered.
So much for Chinese Crested being ratters.
The gym was lovely today. Get in and get out, following the orders of my California dad. Yes sir.
So that's what I do.
And I had a small PR since this whole fiasco started.
My muscles want to turn on again.
You have to look for the small miracles in every moment.
I made a friend at my last gym, years ago. He was an old biker dude. Out of shape, hobbling in, he'd make a point to say hi.
And then we got to talking.
He'd suffered a major back injury. Was bed bound for a decade. Absolute mental torture, being trapped in his bedroom.
I told him that I'd broken my neck, and we came to a mutual understanding of shared, yet overcome misery.
Sitting on the floor of the gym talking, he broke down in tears to me.
No one had ever really understood what he went through, except me. He finally felt seen.
Calm and cool, like the owl that just flew by me.
